Hoping Future George and Future AR will remember this one night at Tanjong Pagar Centre.
And a bonus video taken on May 31, 2018.
Hoping Future George and Future AR will remember this one night at Tanjong Pagar Centre.
And a bonus video taken on May 31, 2018.
I’m at the crossroads once more.
It’s similar to the one I had right before I started college in 2002. I was entering a very lush, green campus. It’s the butterflies you get on your first day. But that’s the same day that I met my friend UP. It was the first day of the most beautiful four years of university. I would fall in love with a boy for the first time. I would come to terms with my sexuality. I would live in a dormitory and learn to sleep away from my home. I would learn how to speak Tagalog.
It’s 2006. I was unsure if I would get a job working at ABS-CBN News Channel where I had my internship the Christmas prior. I wouldn’t easily forget the scent of the halls of the ABS-CBN’s main building. Or it’s eerie silence past midnight (knowing how very much it comes to life during TV Patrol). While waiting for my first job offer, I remember driving around Cavite with my best friend TO. Eventually, I landed my first job and it was for Studio 23. The next six years were beautiful. I met my first (and only) boyfriend to date. I learned how to survive in Metro Manila. I remember Christmas after Christmas.
It’s 2012. I’m hugging my mom at NAIA on a warm summer day. She’s accepted and supported my dream of leaving the Philippines to work in Singapore. It’s a beautiful day when my Cebu Pacific flight lands. My then-boyfriend picks me up at the Changi Airport budget terminal (having arrived a day prior). The city felt huge. Massive. Green. Ready to be explored. My heart was racing. We lived in a backpackers’ hostel in Lavender. Those first few innocent days of Tori-Q and Old Chang Kee. I repeat that story so many times to friends who ask me how I started in Singapore. It was the beginning of life living in a foreign city.
Now, it’s 2018.
I don’t have a boyfriend to lean on if I want to cry after a terrible day has gone by. I’ve lost my drive doing the most repetitive tasks. I feel anxious and worried. But I’m beginning to dream again for that next beautiful change.
I don’t know where I’m going. I just know I have to go somewhere. I have to keep going. I cannot stop. Money can be spent and exhausted. But it can be earned back. Not like time. When time is spent, it’s over. You don’t get that back.
Sayang ang kuryente.
It was NOT a stellar week. I guess it’s time to face the music. But I’m going to face it with as much grace as possible. I’ll give it my best. I hope to talk more about it soon. I’m just in the clouds still.
Some activities this past week.
Singapore Airlines had a road show pop-up at Tanjong Pagar Centre. I managed to visit their A380 set-up. I’m in the business class booth (pictured above).
This is the first DBS Marina Regatta that I’m not racing in. I lended my trusty paddle to my teammate CE. All the best, CE! May you paddle with all of your heart.
Here’s the poster my friend NE and I designed for the team.
This is an awfully framed shot of our table. But it’s basically a Korean BBQ dinner with some of the Filipinos at my current company. Great to catch-up with them.
Kinda shows how I feel these days… the photo above. Look at how clean Singapore is. Look at how organized and well-planned everything looks like in the photo. My weary phone giving you that poor light effect. This is the Singapore I know today.
Notwithstanding, I still went for outrigger canoeing at Sentosa on Saturday. We paddled all the way out to St. John’s Island until we quickly turned around as a thunderstorm engulfed Singapore. It was kind of scary. But WTH. Felt good to paddle. I understand I wasn’t in my best form at all. The waves were very strong.
The weather in Singapore this past weekend.
You can never go wrong with a few sticks of Old Chang Kee. I count FOUR.
And a piping hot bowl of laksa on a rainy day.
Here I am again with AR. We played Overcooked on my PS4. She came to visit my house for the first time here in Bukit Merah. I showed her a view of Normanton Park from my floor’s open area. It made me very sentimental. Because “Normanton Park”, where she used to live many years ago… was filled with memories so lovely and so simple. It now feels like a lifetime away. 😦
Here’s my friend CO choosing his Heaven and Earth iced tea drink for SOLO.
SOLO… the 2nd standalone Star Wars film. Loved it.
The general feeling now is that of uneasiness. But I’m going to embrace it and embrace whatever changes are coming soon for me. There’s just so much emotion running through my veins right now.
I like the lyric ‘to them it’s a park bench, us a magic carpet.’
It was probably written with a sexual tone to it.
But it’s sort of how I see things.
Some people see things in black and white. It’s so damn clear for them.
I tend to romanticise.
It’s a curse and a blessing. You get what I mean?
It helps you create beautiful art. But the downside is… it makes you sentimental about the places you don’t want to see or go back to.
And damn, I’m exhausted.
I’m trying to make it a weekly habit to go running every Wednesday.
Luckily, I have an officemate who’s equally excited to go running on a Wednesday evening. Our route starts near our office in Tanjong Pagar. We head down Shenton Way, going past Lau Pa Sat en route to the Promontory at Marina Bay.
Once you’re at the Promontory, you basically merge with all the other CBD runners. Some shirtless hotties I might add. Earlier the DBS Marina Regatta 2018 tents and event areas were already up in anticipation for this weekend’s dragon boat races.
I saw the FDS tent and it’s situated on a nice corner by a tree.
Our run route takes us past the Shoppes at Marina Bay Sands and then on the waterfront side of Gardens by the Bay en route to Marina Barrage. It’s quite scenic and there are plenty of runners. There are also plenty of tourists too. Ah, Singapore, the way this area is enjoyed continues to enchant me. I wish I were a tourist sometimes with NO EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE of this city. Lol.
After one circle at Marina Barrage (there’s this ramp-like structure which is beautifully inclined giving you a great view of the surroundings)… we headed back towards The Shoppes before ending right at the foot of the ArtScience museum.
5.69 km recorded on my RunKeeper.
Sweaty, we walk slowly back to Tanjong Pagar. This would probably be another 3 kilometers by foot. Grabbing Oolong Tea from a 7-11 and chatting about how the CBD area has changed in the past few years. Can you believe that? I’m qualified to evaluate what’s changed in downtown Singapore.
It was a great run and I hope to continue doing my weekly runs every Wednesday.
I went for Zumba earlier! Hilarious. I wanted to cover up the first memory I have of zumba a few years ago. So… THIS. A wonderful session at 100AM. Some people have two left feet. I have about five left feet.
*Flaps arms up and down* WAZZZZUP.
Afterwards… magpaka-healthy naman tayo. I went for my favorite mentaiko salmon at Salmon Samurai. But instead of the usual brown rice. I went for a bed of lettuce. OMG. Walang lasa. I gotta get used to it if I want to destroy my belly fat FINALLY.
I got a message from my friend AR that she needed someone to talk to or hang out with. I was quite worried. So I took the first plane out to Geylang to meet her at Barbecue Box.
Buti na lang sa BBQ Box. Because. Well. BECAUSE lang.
She was with me during some of my darkest moments in the past few months. So I know how it feels to have that need to meet someone or to see someone to vent out. I’m glad she shared her story with me. AR, if you’re reading this… I’ll be there for you. 🙂
Ah, yes. The bus ride back to my place in Tiong Bahru.
It so happened to be a BUS 63. The same bus I’d take to get to my old place. And here I am… heading the opposite direction.
Trying out the pool at Fitness First 100AM.
Goal: 10 laps
The past few weeks have been exhilarating. Since I got back from Boracay, I have not settled down calmly. It’s like a fancy cake with multiple layers. I have kept my schedule FULL.
Initially I was afraid to slow down after Boracay. Slowing down meant coming home to my bedroom, alone. It was like entering a quiet room where my thoughts were loud and sad. I made sure each night of the week had an activity. Gym, run, dinner with A, dinner with B, dinner with XYZ… maybe meet someone I’ve been chatting with on Tinder.
After doing it for a month… it’s no longer the case. I’m enjoying this period. The expenses have tripled. But I’m conscious of it. I’m overspending. But I can control it. I’d like to think of the current period like an extended summer vacation. In the absence of my dragon boating (which ate up FOUR days of one week)… here I am enjoying a beer, enjoying an occasional smoke, enjoying a conversation with someone old, someone new.
And even if it may seem like I’m spinning in circles and RECOVERING from a traumatic relationship… I still have my values and I still know what I desire and what I want. Now it’s simply about enjoying the life I have. I’m lucky. I know it.
Bahn Mi with Archie – he’s getting married soon! In August in Bacolod. I’ll be flying to Bacolod for his wedding. But for now… some bahn mi and Vietnamese coffee.
2nd Quarter Land Time Trials – happy to say that I beat my 1st quarter results. From 1 pull-up to 6. From 8:09 to 7:40 in the 1.6km run. And my slowest circuit was at 5 mins 22 secs (the fastest being sub 5 mins, to my surprise). I’m satisfied. Because I haven’t been actively training with FDS for almost a month.
Ideator Project at Work – i’m normally great with “home made” office projects. But I’m struggling with the current one because it’s quite challenging. New restrictions for an exciting project we had in mind. Now it’s back to the drawing board.
Biking with Arjae – great to go biking late at night and explore the city. i went around robertson quay. we had some teochew version of char kway teow at the riverside hawker or something like that.
The Royal Wedding – Office Celebration – yup… since we’re kind of responsible for the tv show “Suits”… we’re kinda responsible for contributing to Meghan Markle. they said it, not me lol. some champagne and canapes in the office.
2nd Quarter Water Time Trials – riding on the momentum of a successful land time trials… i grabbed a dragon boat paddle and got to beat my personal best in the WTT. i averaged 2 mins 19 secs in late 2017 and in early 2018. if i got the calculations correctly, i got 2 mins 16 for the quarterly 200m test. yeah, it’s just 3 seconds. but it counts.
Brunch at Sarnies (Telok Ayer) – all for the love of bacon and conversation.
Catching up with Cha at Stages – i only had an hour and a half with cha… and i couldn’t stop talking about everything. trying to compress the last 6 years of living in singapore to 90 minutes. over beers and pizza at stages. she was in town for a One Championship coverage. oh, and she’s an executive producer now!
Isle of Dogs at The Projector – beautiful. but i got dizzy towards the ending LOL with all of wes anderson’s signature panning shots. the panning just intensified towards the end haha. as usual, the projector is a romantic place. but maybe i was the only one feeling it.
FOMO Fries and Drinks – didn’t want to go home immediately. so fries and beer at FOMO was in order! it’s now a favorite beer garden i suppose!
The Royal Wedding of Prince Harry and Meghan Markel – yes, the two are married! this is most likely the last royal wedding that HM Queen Elizabeth II will see in her lifetime. The next possible weddings in her direct line would be that of Prince George… and he’s only five years old.
2nd Outrigger Canoe Session with VTF – 2nd consecutive week to train for outrigger canoeing. the session only involved 11 of us on two boats. mostly technique reform. i am still adjusting my stroke because it differs with dragon boating. i got to meet more people from V’aa Team France. earlier though i was surprised we paddled all the way out to the twin sisters (twin islands just south of Sentosa). i also felt sea sick after training.
Dinner at Joanna’s House – conversations about life and love. about online dating. and also… trying out JC’s VR which had pr0n on it. Believe that? Yes. Online dating and virtual reality pr0n. We’re really in 2018.
Plenty of new things to look forward to. Volunteering with an organization that means a lot to me. Pivoting to outrigger canoeing. Renewed vigor for running and lifting. I’ve reconnected in recent months with the nearest and dearest to me—while also editing out what’s fake.
I feel like a ship that’s just beginning to sail again. ❤
The call time was at 3:45 PM. I reached on time (I was with my friend Br). There was a large gathering at Wave House. The boats were starting to be carried down to the water. I started to apply sunblock while waiting for some instructions.
In total, there were about six or seven boats in the water. I got to join a boat with other experienced paddlers. I managed to not get myself into the rookie session since I already did the Country of Origin (COO) last year. Thankful I could already jump into the regular training session.
The weather was fine for my first OC training with Va’a Team France. But the water seemed to be a bit dirty (as what I was hearing from the others). Our program was shorter distances towards “the barrels” or something like that. Basically, we would paddle out from Siloso Beach and towards Tanjong Beach (passing by Palawan Beach). We did a few loops… back and forth.
Since I normally paddle on a dragon boat, my developed side is on the right. I am confident when I get to paddle on the right. But when they call the command to swap sides… I struggle with the form on the left. I did make some splashes.
Afterwards… the steers behind me and even one of the trainers said that I wasn’t too bad. I had good form. It’s kind of rare I hear that lol. I’m excited to go train again.