It’s not where I want to be. It’s not where I want to sit. But it’s where I’m at.

At one point I was the only one looking after all the bags!


I train. I hit the gym to supplement. I run even if I hate it sometimes. I bring my brand of enthusiasm. I am committed. I’m not the strongest or fastest. But I put in my part and my piece.

But somehow reserve remains my place in the dragon boat universe.

Just putting it out there because one day I hope to look back at this blog entry and laugh at it. I’ll shut up and continue training. Cutting off everything that takes me off of training.

Kaya ko ‘to!



And not literally of course because it’s a team sport. But the idea that you are competing against all the doubt that builds up inside of yourself. 🙂

Making myself comfortable on the air couch.

My paddle batchmates.

Everyone sporting the new FDS drinking shirt.


Natatakot ako bumalik sa training.

Nung una kasi, may skin allergy ako. May kasama pang mild fever. Nagpatingin ako sa tatlong doctor. (WOW.) Nothing life-threatening naman sa results. Hindi naman ganon ka-seryoso. Pinainom lang ako ng mga medicines. Mukhang okay naman. I guess?

Ngayon na medyo pwede na ako bumalik sa training… biglang parang tinatamad ako. Ang palagay ko, humina ako lalo. Hindi ako as strong as I want to be. Last year was athletic. Like tipong, my best year in sport: weightlifting, dragon boating, running.

But I ended the year feeling a sense of defeat.

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One year of dragon boating

Has it really been a year?

We had a batch dinner to celebrate a year of friendship. More than half in our batch are active paddlers. I like the dynamic with my batchmates. We are upbeat and positive-thinking. I only worry how long that positive streak can last, lol. Because seriously maging realistic din tayo… every barkada must weather a storm every now and then. Our WhatsApp batch thread is informative about trainings and romantic musings.

After a year, like in college, even friends from the beginning find new friends later on. WTH. Sounds so “Dear diary, I met 3 friends today.” Continue reading

FDS August 2015 Trainings

The team is training for the PA Dragonboat Challenge (Aug. 30) and AustCham 10KM Race (Sept. 5). Because of the 10km race, our program this past month is on building endurance.

I’ve also frequented the gym more often this past month to make up for not being able to gym back in June and July.

Here are some of our recent attendance photos for land training, pool training, and water training.


FDS Trainings in prep for AustCham 10KM

Tuloy ang trainings!

We are preparing for the AustCham 10KM race. It is a unique local race in Singapore that runs that long! We usually compete in standard 200-500 meter races. This will be a test of endurance and determination.

Our training schedule so far has been standard (pool, land, and water training). By standard I mean… we haven’t had additional or supplement trainings in the past two weeks. I think the training committee will be adding more trainings on top of the standard four times weekly. Of course the program each training is focused on building endurance.

pool training attendance (july 28 and aug 4)


What dragon boating means to me

Nine months of dragon boating.

I’ve seen improvements in my endurance and physique. When I first started, I would stop halfway during a 10-minute warmup drill. I would give up and start questioning myself, “Bakit ko ba ito ginagawa?”. I would look at my teammates with both envy and admiration. “Ang gagaling nila.”

With my physique, I no longer feel like the lanky pale-skinned guy I was before. I love my tan. I love it so much that when I see a cute guy with pale skin on the train, I frown. Ang boring siguro ng buhay niya (JUDGEMENTAL AGAD?!) Ayaw niya mag-paaraw. Siguro all he does is shop, gym, and stay indoors. In the past nine months, I get turned on by athleticism. Yung tipong kasama mo ang mga conscious sa health. People who challenge themselves and encourage others to reach their physical goals.

Physically, I feel slightly slightly toned. I still have tummy fat and average arms. Sa tingin ko, need lang mag gym and program to bulk up a bit. As for endurance, I am running farther and faster thanks to FDS training. I succeeded making personal best in 10km and 21.1km at the recent Sundown Marathon. Not as fast as my peers, but most definitely better than anything I’ve done before.

I may not have a firm chest, or have big biceps and triceps. Those are aesthetics I feel. What about substance? So many lean women on my dragon boat team… some even so petite and yet when they paddle, the water disappears. I’m so eager to gain strength. Even if I have tummy fat or little arms… Strength muna before aesthetics right?

Since dragon boating is a team sport, it helps when you hear encouraging remarks. I’ve had a fair share of pep talk from our training committee (mga kapitan), our coach (a former Philippine national team captain), and various seniors. Minsan napapaisip ako… siguro I keep getting called out kasi pansin nila mukhang hirap na hirap na ako. They push me to improve myself. But I am prone to second-guessing myself. 😦

Which brings me to say that after nine months of dragon boating, the other issue apart from the need for strength training is mental training. Mind over matter, right?

I find that when I second-guess myself, when I start focusing on my weaknesses… I distract myself and I doubt and lose focus. Suddenly it’s my mind that slows me down. Our team captain would scream, “It’s all in the mind!”. I feel totoo nga. Lalo na when you are in a sprint or at the last 100 meters of a 500-meter race. With splash in your eyes, the adrenaline of competition, commands being yelled “LONGS! READY??? GO!!!!”.

I guess I’m writing this now kasi despite wanting to be the best version of myself for the team, I am still struggling. I still hop onto the boat asking myself if I can survive the training program. When I’m paddling for eight minutes with two more minutes to go… losing my form is frustrating!

From zero sports participation to joining one of the most competitive expat teams in Singapore, it’s been a wild challenge. I should heed to physical, brute strength development and stop overanalyzing myself. I need to control my mind and stop doubting. Lalo na dito sa dragon boating. This is something I am committed to.

Dragon boating is a team sport. As an individual within a team, the greatest challenge I feel is to defeat self-doubt and to push myself beyond what is safe and comfortable.


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FDS Land Training (April 16, 2015)

Land training earlier.


Call time: 6:30 PM at Kallang Riverside Park

Circuit training again with weights and then stations set up for abdominals. We also did high knees. Noticed that there were fewer in attendance. Maybe down to three sub-groups working out together instead of about five or six previously. I think Training Comm has made more stations available (6 can do the same exercise at one time) which means we can get through it faster.

We had dinner at Kallang 5. Happy Birthday Suzie!